Living Only For Myself: Make Those Who Hate Me Regret It

Chapter 396 - 395: "Forget It, Forget It...

She typed a reply: [The offline meetup is right around the corner, so you’ll get to see him then. And once school starts, there will be plenty of chances to meet my boyfriend. He’s really not what you guys think. You have to trust my judgment.]

Just like every time before, no one believed her...

Sika said: [Honestly, Susu, you’re just too young. You’re surrounded by classmates in their teens, so as soon as a man who’s more mature than the boys your age shows up, you get sweet-talked away by a few pretty words.]

The girl sounded like a total expert on love now, with a whole theory for everything.

Of course, a chorus of agreement followed...

What else could Xu Su say? She was tempted to just snap a photo of Zhou Mochen and send it to the group...

His looks alone would be enough to redeem his reputation!

But what little rationality she had left stopped her.

’Forget it. As long as I know how wonderful Zhou Mochen is, that’s all that matters.’

...

Back home, Xu Su had just finished washing up and was walking to the bed when Zhou Mochen pushed her down onto it. It had been a whole week since they’d last done anything. Holding the delicate, soft girl in his arms—who could possibly resist?

Kisses rained down on her, and the buttons of her pajamas were undone one by one. Xu Su started to feel a little flustered...

Zhou Mochen noticed something was off. Although the girl didn’t push him away, she wasn’t being proactive like she usually was.

His movements paused. He took her hand, placed it on his collar, and coaxed, "Be a good girl. Help me take it off."

The corners of the man’s eyes were flushed with desire, and the depths of his gaze were dark and heavy. His expression was inscrutable. Paired with that handsome face so close to hers, the tip of his nose beaded with sweat, it was incredibly alluring, yet also inexplicably frightening.

Xu Su’s throat went dry. She swallowed, feeling completely mesmerized and losing all thought of refusal. Her fingers trembled as she slowly undid his buttons...

"That’s my good girl..." Zhou Mochen’s brow relaxed as he leaned down and kissed Xu Su’s lips again.

The man’s low, husky voice murmured her name, and Xu Su felt like her bones were about to melt. Tossing her reason to the winds, her fingers, which had paused for half a second, quickly sped up, stripping his clothes off.

Zhou Mochen’s kisses had already traveled to her shoulder and neck. He buried his face by her ear and let out a soft chuckle, absolutely loving how eager she was.

And in the last moments before her consciousness was completely eroded, Xu Su only remembered to remind him to use protection.

...

Afterward...

Xu Su’s face was flushed from their passion, and she was so tired she could barely open her eyes. She couldn’t help but mutter to herself, ’A handsome face is a woman’s downfall!’

She nestled into Zhou Mochen’s arms, took his hand, and placed it on her lower back, complaining, "Massage it for me. My back is killing me."

"We’ve done this so many times, yet you’re still so delicate," Zhou Mochen said, slowly massaging her lower back. He teased her with a smile, "Susu, when are you going to stop giving up halfway through?"

Xu Su’s eyelashes fluttered. The blush that had just started to fade from her cheeks crept back up. She couldn’t resist pinching the small of his back, saying with a mix of shame and indignation, "Zhou Mochen, if you keep talking nonsense, I won’t even make it halfway! I’ll just give up from the start!"

"We can’t have that,"

Zhou Mochen sighed dramatically and held his hands up in surrender. "Okay, my sweet Susu, have you ever heard the saying, ’It’s better to have never had something at all, than to have had it and then lose it’? That’s me right now, you get it? A monk who’s tasted meat can’t go back to eating vegetarian. He can only return to the secular world; he can’t chant his sutras anymore."

’Better to have never had it at all, than to have had it and then lose it...’

’A monk who’s tasted meat can’t go back to eating vegetarian...’

Every single word was a dirty joke. Xu Su’s heart pounded in her chest, but at the same time, she felt troubled.

"But... if we do it this often, could I get pregnant?" she asked, worried. "I’m still young. I haven’t even started college yet. I don’t want to have a baby."

Zhou Mochen was taken aback. He hadn’t expected this to be her worry. After pondering for a few seconds, he said, "I’ll be careful. I’ll make sure there are no slip-ups."

Of course, Xu Su knew he was always very careful about protection, but that one false alarm they had still left her with lingering fears.

Seeing she was still conflicted, Zhou Mochen patted the top of her head and said in a conciliatory tone, "You’re that worried, huh? Then what would make you feel at ease? I’ll do whatever you say."

’The first thing that came to Xu Su’s mind was, of course, asking him to get a vasectomy. After all, that’s what he did in her past life, and it was certainly effective. She had reached thirty without a single accident, despite never using any form of contraception.’

’But...’

Xu Su hesitated for a few seconds. "How about... I take the pill?"

"No way. Get that thought out of your head right now!" Zhou Mochen warned, tightening his arm around her waist. "Your body is so delicate. Don’t even think about putting it through that. All medicine has side effects, you know that, right?"

’I knew he wouldn’t agree!’

Xu Su mulled it over for another moment, then looked up at him. "Then let’s reduce the frequency. From now on, we only do it during my safe period. That way we’ll have double protection."

"..." Zhou Mochen was silent for a long time, just looking into her eyes. His expression gradually turned into one of deep and bitter suffering. "Susu, are you sure you’re not doing this just to punish me?"

"...No, I’m just worried about an accidental pregnancy."

Xu Su’s expression was a picture of sincerity. "I’m not trying to punish you with this, Zhou Mochen. I like you so much, can’t you tell?"

At her words, Zhou Mochen let out a soft "tsk." He gave her waist a helpless squeeze, his tone one of complete resignation. "I believe you. I believe everything you say..."

In the end, he didn’t say anything more. He just tightened his arms, pulling her into his embrace, and stroked Xu Su’s long hair while gently pecking her forehead, coaxing her to sleep.

The soft touch on her forehead felt like a feather brushing against her skin, and the heart that Xu Su considered to be quite hard began to soften, little by little.

She wrapped her arms around his waist and couldn’t help but say, "Oh, forget it..."

’No matter how outrageous the rules she set, whenever this man really wanted to do something, he would always find a way to seduce her into compromising anyway...’

’If that’s the case, she might as well just give in sooner rather than later...’

Xu Su realized that her rebellious streak and her favorite pastime of arguing with and teasing him were gradually being worn down by the tender world Zhou Mochen had forged for her.

’Often, before she could even start acting up, she would be the first to surrender, terrified he would put on that pitiful, aggrieved expression again...’

’And to think, she used to be a woman who weighed ninety-nine pounds—and ninety-seven of them were pure rebellion!’

’And just like that, she had fallen right into the ’net’ that Zhou Mochen had so painstakingly woven.’

...

Her love life was sweet, and her friendships were harmonious. For the next few days, Xu Su turned down Shen Chen’s invitations to spend time helping her two good friends, Huang Feng and Qian Jia, look for jobs.

Perhaps it was good luck, but everything went smoothly. Within two days, Huang Feng found a job at a bubble tea shop, while Qian Jia was hired at a chain coffee shop.

The two shops weren’t far from each other, and both were near the school and also close to Xu Su’s house, making the commute very convenient.

Once they found jobs and started working, Xu Su, who had spent two busy days driving her best friends around to look for work and eat together, suddenly found herself with free time.

She had been chilling at home for less than a day when, that very evening, Shen Chen showed up at her door and dragged her out.