I have nothing to talk to you about but love

Chapter 3 He plays a mentally ill gay

Tang Xu didn't sleep well that night. As soon as he closed his eyes, his mind was full of the scene of seeing Liang Yun during the day. He was surrounded by people in suits and shoes, as if he was a different person.Tang Xu sighed, rubbed his forehead, sat up from the bed, glanced at the bag of medicine on the cabinet from the corner of his eye, felt even more irritable, and simply lay down again.

Later, he fell asleep for some reason. In his dream, he seemed to be back to his college days, back to their first and most beautiful time.

The first time he met Liang Yun was in the fall of his sophomore year. He was invited by his seniors in the same department to take part in an avant-garde play directed and acted by the students of the school. During the rehearsal in the small theater that day, the director was mysterious. It was announced that there would be a handsome guy in the cameo.He was helping the seniors arrange props at that time, so he didn't pay attention to the movement in the auditorium.Suddenly, a commotion was heard, accompanied by a slightly exaggerated gasp from a certain girl.

Tang Xu raised his head in doubt, and saw the back door of the theater opened at some point, and a tall figure came from behind the auditorium against the light.The boy was wearing an off-white shirt and jeans, with a smooth face, black hair like ink, deep and bright eyes, and a clean and pure temperament.Even though Tang Xu was used to seeing handsome men and beautiful women in school, he was stunned for a few seconds when he saw the boy appearing.

"Junior brother, you're here." Holding the script in his hand, the director excitedly walked in front of Liang Yun in three steps at a time.

"Let me introduce my team to you. This is Xiao Wu, the choreographer, who is in charge of lighting and stage design. Mei Jia, the screenwriter, is in charge of the script coordinator. The two leading actors..."

Tang Xu knew that he was about to be introduced, so he was inexplicably nervous.Liang Yun was standing in the auditorium in the front row. As the director introduced them one by one, his smiling eyes followed along.

"This is the male number two, Tang Xu, um... he plays a mentally ill gay."

What the hell is a mentally ill gay?Senior, can you have a snack when you introduce me?Tang Xu complained silently in his heart, with a polite smile on his face: "Hello."

"Hello." Liang Yun smiled.Only then did Tang Xu notice that there was a small, light brown tear mole under the corner of his right eye.

"Ah, I forgot to say, the two of you acted opposite each other. He was madly infatuated with you, kidnapped you, and did some inappropriate things. Of course, we will be very reserved. After all, this is a literary film, not pornography. Piece. Are you all right?"

Tang Xu pressed his forehead, he didn't dare to look at Liang Yun's expression, he always felt that Liang Yun should shake his face and leave in the next second.However, to his surprise, Liang Yun just smiled: "No problem."

Now Tang Xu is nervous. He plays the younger brother of the heroine in this drama. Although the main line is about the incomparable love between the heroine of the teacher and the heroine of the student, he also has a lot of roles in this sub-line, and there are A lot of affectionate chanting, he used to practice with empty chairs or dolls, but now that he has a real person, he doesn't know how to say the lines.

"...yes, I'm a lunatic, a hysterical pervert, a control freak. I just want you to look at me, to keep your eyes on my face for a second... No, a second is not enough , I want you to stare at me for an hour, a day, a month—”

"Stop!" The director stood up from the auditorium, frowned and looked at Tang Xu: "Your eyes are dodging, the person you love the most is lying on the bed, besides expressing madness and affection, you also have to sacrifice As pious, you are willing to give everything for him, understand? Take a break first and adjust your state."

"Okay, director, I'll make adjustments right away." Tang Xu apologized, he was indeed distracted just now, when the stage was empty and only he and Liang Yun were left lying on the bed, he inevitably felt nervous and apprehensive.Especially when Liang Yun's hands were tied to the head of the bed, and his delicate and handsome face showed a fragile expression, the pity in his heart came out uncontrollably, which seriously interfered with his performance state.

"It's okay, take your time." Liang Yun, who was lying on the bed, smiled and encouraged him: "We have just started working together, it's normal for you not to get used to it."

"Well, thank you for your hard work." Tang Xu looked at his tied wrists embarrassedly.In order to achieve a real effect, the hemp rope on Liang Yun's wrist was actually tied. Every time the rehearsal ended, there would be a red circle around his wrist, but Tang Xu never heard him complain.

"I'm just lying down, what's the trouble." Liang Yun frowned slightly: "But to be honest, it would be nice if this bed was softer."

As soon as these words came out, both of them laughed, and the atmosphere suddenly became much more relaxed.Tang Xu struck while the iron was hot, looked at Liang Yun and said, "Why don't I treat you to dinner after the rehearsal is over?"

"Okay, do you want to eat in the cafeteria?"

"Of course not. Go to the Sichuan restaurant on the back street of the school. The boiled fish there is very delicious." Speaking of boiled fish, Tang Xu's eyes lit up.He grew up in Sichuan, and Sichuan cuisine, which is heavy and spicy, has been his favorite since he was a child.He didn't know at that time that Liang Yun's taste was bland, which was completely different from his hobbies. In order to accommodate him, Liang Yun ate with him many times, holding back tears and swallowing the food in his mouth.

The two gradually became acquainted with each other in life, and their performances on the stage gradually improved.Sometimes after the rehearsal is over, we will meet for a meal together.Tang Xu knew that Liang Yun was very popular in school, and the girls chasing him could line up from the south gate to the north gate, and some boys even confessed to him.At first, he didn't feel anything, at most he was envious of Liang Yun's luck.It wasn't until one time when the two of them were buying drinks at a milk tea shop outside the school, that a girl came shyly to ask for Liang Yun's phone number, and he experienced that strange and sour feeling for the first time.

Tang Xu panicked a little. He guessed that he was too involved in the play and regarded Liang Yun as the boy he loved so much in the play, so he had this kind of cross-border feeling.He had never felt this way about someone of the same sex before. He also had a crush on a girl in high school. Although that crush ended without a problem, he would never suddenly fall in love with someone of the same sex.

Tang Xu desperately told himself to distinguish between performance and reality. Apart from rehearsals, he also began to deliberately avoid Liang Yun in private.Soon, rehearsals became torture for him too.He had to stare at Liang Yun's face for a long time, looking at him with affectionate and fiery eyes, and sometimes he couldn't even tell whether the words of love he uttered were just lines or the truest desire in his heart.

"...you are an angel, you are also a devil, you are my salvation, and you are also my gallows, you sentence me to rebirth, or death...I beg you, kiss me..."

This scene is one of the climax scenes of the whole play. The male second is drunk, stumbles into the room where the male partner is imprisoned, confides love words to him, and kisses the male partner forcibly.In order to embolden Tang Xu, the director really bought him two bottles of beer.Tang Xu drank a bottle and quickly entered the state.Naturally, it was impossible to perform the kiss scene, so the director asked the two to borrow their seats.It's just that Tang Xu drank too much, although his lines and expressions are in place, his body is a little out of control.Seeing Liang Yun's face close at hand, his head became hot for a moment, and he kissed him directly on the mouth.

He saw Liang Yun's eyes widen, and there was obvious shock in his eyes.They were facing the auditorium sideways, and the director and screenwriter in the audience didn't notice this scene.When Tang Xu realized what he had done, his face flushed with embarrassment, and he desperately apologized to Liang Yun.

"I'm sorry, I... I drank too much... I'm really sorry..."

Liang Yun's pale lips were flushed by his kiss, Tang Xu glanced over, his face was so hot that it was almost smoking.He didn't dare to look into Liang Yun's eyes at all, he just kept saying sorry.

"What's the matter?" The director in the audience was still a little confused.

"It's nothing, I didn't borrow my seat well, I hit the bridge of my nose." Liang Yun sat up with a calm expression.

"Oh, Tang Xu, don't be nervous, two men, it's no big deal."

But Tang Xu couldn't easily turn the page. After the rehearsal was over that day, when he returned to the dormitory, his head was full of that ridiculous kiss.Liang Yun's lips were a little dry, but very soft, like jelly when kissed.Tang Xu pressed his forehead, desperately trying to shake Liang Yun's face out of his mind, but the reality was just the opposite.That night, he had an even more absurd dream. In the dream, he pressed Liang Yun on the bed and kissed him heartily. His tongue even penetrated into his mouth and licked his gums.He woke up from the dream with a hot body, lifted the quilt and saw that his underwear was already wet.

After that night, Tang Xu knew that he could no longer deny the reality, whether he was too involved in the drama, or because of the drama, he had fallen in love with Liang Yun hopelessly.

The performance is approaching, and the rehearsal schedule is getting tighter and tighter.Although Tang Xu already knew what he wanted, but when he faced Liang Yun again on the stage, he was surprisingly calm, even getting into the mood faster than before.

"Tang Xu, you are improving so fast, it makes me get goosebumps." After the rehearsal, the director praised.

"Thanks for the senior's guidance." Tang Xu had a smile on his face, but his heart was extremely complicated.The official performance will be next week, and when the performance is over, he and Liang Yun probably won't have any more interaction.He will no longer have the opportunity to express his feelings for Liang Yun unscrupulously through the lines in the play.

"Tang Xu, will we still have dinner together tonight?" As usual, after the rehearsal was over, Liang Yun waited for him at the door with his bag on his back.

"No, I have something to do tonight, you go and eat first."

"Well, you've been really busy recently." Liang Yun sighed, and walked out of the theater helplessly with her bag on her back.

Tang Xu looked at the back of him leaving, feeling bitter in his chest.Liang Yun still regards him as a close "buddy", but Tang Xu knows in his heart that he can't get along with Liang Yun like before, and he has feelings and desires for him that he shouldn't have.He didn't have the courage to confess to Liang Yun, so he could only keep finding excuses to avoid him. He is a timid coward!

If there were no subsequent accidents, Tang Xu would have kept that relationship in his heart forever, and Liang Yun would never have left such a deep imprint on his life.