AWB Chapter 36 Sudden Change
Chapter 36 Sudden Change
The sound of Gu Han's breathing came from the phone, making Chen Chen feel that his heart was full, instead of hearing the news of his death, he couldn't feel that he was still alive, and could only rely on his nature to pretend that he was alive.Acting can indeed allow people to put aside their real troubles, sorrows, tears and sobs, pretending to be another person, pretending that they are dead.
"I regret not having the backbone and courage to tell you that I like you." The statement whispered, "When I heard the news of your death, I felt dead. It was very painful. It was more painful than when my mother ran away from home and told me that I would never come back. Sad. At that time, I felt that the sky was falling. But I realized later that what makes people breathless is that the world no longer exists.”
Gu Han's breathing became softer, and the statement could even hear the wind whistling from there, this city always likes the wind to blow everything away.
The west wind hates how much, but the eyebrows are not scattered.
"I've always wanted to wait for me to stand on a high place before talking to you and letting you know my existence. Although there may still be a gap, that is the best state I can do. You said that you only talk to the strong I have always looked up to you."
"And then? I mean now." Gu Han asked him.
"You are very strong, but I want to become stronger enough to protect you." The statement said a little shyly, like an ancient machine, it will always be difficult to start, but once the machine has power, it will It can turn cheerfully, and the speed makes people dizzy.
"Why do you have such thoughts?" Gu Han's voice was difficult, he had been pretending very well.
"I said that I have known you for 20 years, and you probably have forgotten the child you met at the age of 16." Statement said softly, "It was the day after your parents died in the plane crash."
"You are holding a copy of "The Little Prince", staring at the book in a daze, I call you twice, you look up at me, and say to me: 'The little prince said, I wonder if the stars are shining so that everyone One finds his way home. He is answered, 'Look, my star, just overhead and yet so far away!' They will not return."
Gu Han pondered for a while.
There is a mobile phone between the two of them, but they can still clearly hear the subtle voice and the depth of breathing.Everything is as quiet as a snow mountain in winter, you can hear the wind and the beating of your heart.
Gu Han finally spoke, his voice as slow as flowing water: "On my 16th birthday, no one came back. After 20 years, I still remember it very clearly. That day I arranged things at home and dispatched the servants I sat on the sofa and waited for my parents to come back from Munich. It was a beautiful day, with a breeze and sun, and everything was alive. A phone call came in at this time, telling my parents that the plane they were on had crashed I feel that the world is still, time seems to be glued and solidified, and then I watched the sun outside the window go down a little bit, until it was dark, and I realized that no one would come again. At that moment, basically set the future of my life keynote."
Since life can leave at any time, even without time to say goodbye, why make others sad?
"So this is why you never try to love?" Just when Gu Han thought that the statement was gone, the statement asked aloud.
"There should be some reasons for this, but not all of them." Gu Han glanced out the window, the lights were just on, but the lights in the house were not turned on, he was sitting on the sofa alone, talking on the phone with another person.
This feeling is very strange, like you are in the deep sea, hiding in a transparent bubble, you can see the dark blue in the distance, you can feel the hazy sunlight above your head, but you can't hear the sound, and there is no one around you can communicate.You want to open your mouth and make a sound, but if no one talks with you for a long time, you lose the ability to speak and speak words that you can't even hear clearly.
Man is a creature that fears loneliness. He has lived in the deep sea for so long that he always thought he was a deep sea fish, but his longing never left, but was buried deeper in his heart.
"Can I like you?" Statement asked such a sentence like a young boy.
Gu Han's heartbeat suddenly accelerated, his mouth was dry, he didn't know what to say, he was a little speechless and didn't know how to answer.
The statement said to itself: "I regret it, I thought I could wait until the day I succeed, if you are still single, I will tell you, I have liked you for many years, from a place you didn't know, and you didn't pay attention I have a lifetime to like you and take care of you, or we take care of each other and grow old together. I know you like tango, and I learned it too, and we can dance to old age together and still be personable; I can cook , you like spicy food, I cook Sichuan cuisine very well, but eating too spicy food will hurt your body, so I also learned Yangzhou cuisine; you like reading books, I like puzzles, I have a very spacious study room, where the light is also bright Okay, I will accompany you to read the book, if you like to play puzzles, we can spend a day or a few days together to spell out a complete picture..."
He mustered up all his courage to finish the scene he had planned. Gu Han didn't know what to say. He was so sweet and his heart was beating. No one had ever made him so happy. nearly forty.
He felt that it was inappropriate to say anything now. The sweet taste made his head hot, so he decided to cool down, so he hung up the phone directly.
Statement heard the "beep" sound before realizing that the other party had hung up, smiled wryly at the phone, his eyes lit up again after the wry smile, put the hot phone on the coffee table, and stared at the phone in a daze.
Being able to hang up the phone instead of categorically rejecting himself, in fact, he still, acquiesced.
I can take him as acquiescence.
The courage he has accumulated for many years has been exhausted. The identity of the actor can not save him, nor can the gods and Buddhas of the heavens save him.
His eyes have been on this person for 20 years, and for the remaining 20, 40, and 60 years, he hopes to walk with this person.
He didn't dare to tell Gu Han what he really thought when he heard the news of his death. It was a day when even his soul was turned into ashes, and everything lost its luster, and all his goals became illusory. , was discovered by Wen Sheng in time and sent to the hospital for gastric lavage.Wen Sheng asked him, is this useful?
He knew it was useless, but he didn't want to do anything anymore.He acted, sang, and walked a bumpy life, but there was always a light of hope shining in front of him.When one day he finds that the light in front of him has disappeared, what should he do?
It doesn't matter anymore.No matter how good you are at acting, you can’t play yourself anymore. When you don’t have yourself, you can devote yourself to the play, and you’ll be like Mel in Inception. You can’t tell what’s real, what’s in a dream, and what’s in the play. It's outside the play, if you don't go crazy, you can't survive.
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Gu Han hung up the phone impulsively, and only realized something was wrong after 3 minutes, but he didn't want to call back the statement. Even if he was eloquent and brilliant like a lotus flower, he didn't want to talk or make a promise at this time. Love can only be opened after getting along for a long time. Love at first sight is rare. He has only been with Chen Chen for less than half a year, and most of them are acting in the middle. It is impossible for him to accept it suddenly.
The statement has known him for 20 years, and the statement said that he has liked him for ten years, but to Gu Han, he has only known the statement for half a year.To him, the statement of his previous life was just a familiar stranger.
He needs time to calm down. As an adult, the ideal way to get along in his heart is like his parents, holding his hand and growing old together.He is seldom tempted, and he has few desires and thoughts. Once he is tempted, it will be a matter of a lifetime.
But just hung up the phone like this, didn't it hurt the young man's heart too much?
Gu Han hesitated, hesitated, he thought not to return the call, but he couldn't make this young man's heart bleed.I read in a book before that love is poison. Now he can't poison others to death first, and give them no hope at all. After all, he also has such a touch of emotion.
Gu Han pressed his fingers on the screen, the phone was of a simple style, white without a case, the screen was clear, and there was nothing on the table.The functions are clearly placed there, but Gu Han doesn't know which one to press to express his thoughts.
He even hoped that Chen would call him again, so that he could pretend nothing happened, tell the other party that it was okay, and then say goodbye, or good night.
But the night was getting darker, and the statement didn't call, let alone send a text message.
Gu Han frowned slightly, and sighed secretly, how should it end in his heart?
After 10 minutes of this stalemate, Gu Han turned on the blacked-out screen, and when the screen went black again, he turned it on again. Finally, he made up his mind and typed a sentence to send.
Now he wants to recall his old phone numbers, as well as the cell phone numbers of those familiar people, the landlines he used in the past, and the old phones, but he finds that he can’t remember them anyway. Not because your memory is good, but because you put the other person in your mind unconsciously, because he is good.
After posting, Gu Han smiled wryly, thinking why he has become so indecisive now, even a little sad for the spring and autumn, worrying about gain and loss, could it be that changing his shell even changed his personality?He squinted his back on the sofa and sat all night.
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Statement suddenly saw the screen of his mobile phone light up, and the text message alert sounded.
Who would be looking for him so late?
His mobile phone has a password, it is He Lanruo's birthday, and the desktop of his mobile phone is also He Lanruo.
"I don't mean to dislike you, don't think too much. Another "Please give me some time to think, I need to think about it. by: Gu Han"
Chen Chen thought, maybe he should replace the phone desktop, and replace the current one with Gu Han's photo, and fortunately, Gu Han's birthday and He Lanruo's are on the same day, so he doesn't need to replace the familiar number in his heart.
Perhaps it was because it happened to be his birthday, so he was able to see Gu Han again, without the pain in his heart.
Life is the most difficult thing if you ask for it, and you lose it when you get it. If he has no time to ask, he has already lost the opportunity to speak, isn't it even more bitter?
Fortunately, he came back, gods and gods, he would like to shorten his life by 20 years in exchange for Gu Han's happiness and peace in this life.
Or don't rely on the hands of the gods and Buddhas, protect him personally, become stronger with him, and walk in front of the spotlight together. If the latter wish cannot be fulfilled, then it is good to let him escort you.
Love makes people humble and also makes people fearless.
Love makes people brave and also makes people cowardly.
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This dragged on until the weekend.
Chu Heng's gathering was in a villa, which was rumored to be Chu Yuan's private property. The two brothers of the Chu family were quite strange. Chu Heng recruited money, and Chu Yuan managed money, but Chu Heng was very poor.
In fact, it was Chu Heng who was crying for poverty in the court, and the statement calmly watched from the sidelines, while Chu Yuan watched his brother expressionlessly, trying to get money out of other people's pockets by various methods of deceit and abduction. Fa, the deflated expression makes people happy.
Gu Han came a bit late, and after entering through the gate, he was led to the statement by the waiter. This was something he asked the waiter for help before the statement. This little boy was also a fan of the statement, so he did it with ease.
"I'm late, I'm sorry." Gu Han's eyes were full of apology, he looked very beautiful in a formal suit, and that suit really lived up to his expectations, wrapping Gu Han's young body very well, ironed and elegant.Gu Han's eyes were as bright as stars, because he walked in a little hastily, there was a gleam of water in his pupils, he stated that he felt his mouth was dry, and tried to take a sip of wine to cover up his guilt-like embarrassment.
"What's going on?" Chu Heng looked at Gu Han curiously, thinking that sure enough, no matter what time, no matter what face he uses, an elegant person is still elegant, his conversation will not change, and his confident demeanor will not change. .
To conquer a circle is to be conquered by the values of this circle.When a beautiful thing appears in any outline, it will show the truth. Why didn't he discover it before, but was discovered first by the statement?But being able to sign such a person, Chu Hengxin also has a sense of success.
"There was a car accident on the viaduct, and the traffic was blocked." Gu Han's face was a little pale when he said this. He had a shadow over the viaduct in his heart. People have walked in front of death once, and the shadow is not so easy to remove. "It took about an hour to disperse the crowd." Hours, I only left 15% of the remaining time when I came, and I didn’t expect to be late.”
Statement wanted to shake his hand, but publicly refrained from doing so.
"It's okay, this is just a gathering of idlers, and you have a reason." Chu Heng said generously that it's okay to miss his speech. Gu Han smiled reluctantly. Called away, greeted this way and turned to leave.
Chen Chen and Gu Han still stayed in this corner. Gu Han stopped for more than ten minutes before he recovered. He was still a little embarrassed looking at Chen Chen. When Chu Heng was here just now, he didn't feel it. Now that there are only two people left, he felt it. There is a trace of vague and ambiguous feelings entangled.
Gu Han had nothing to say, looking for something to say, and at this moment his conversational skills were like floating clouds in the sky, "Thank you for the clothes you sent, they fit you well."
"You look beautiful in it, and it's eye-catching." The statement was also clumsy, and it was only after he finished speaking that he realized what he had just said, wishing he could slap himself on the spot.
"... I'm honored." Gu Han replied.
The dead silence and silence formed a huge contrast with the liveliness of the venue.
"Oh, by the way, I brought you what you asked for." It was only after the statement realized this matter that he thought that he had a lot of illnesses now.
Amnesia+Alzheimer's disease+Love in trance+Love idiot+I always think about a person unconsciously. As the disease becomes more and more serious, I don't want to get out of here. If I have a disease, I don't want to treat it. Abandon treatment.
He took out a gold card with a black body edge, the card number on it was very simple, it was a membership card given to him by Allen, as a reward for his friendship to star in his debut work, although there was no money in it, but don't care about these details, The purpose of this card is that large transfers will not be found out. He doesn't want the invisible hand behind him to intervene in his affairs one day, and he doesn't want to expose Gu Han like this.
Gu Han took it, rubbed the edge of the card with his fingertips, lowered his head slightly, his eyes were black and shiny, fascinated by the statement.
"It feels like signing a prostitution contract, paying the money with one hand and delivering the goods with the other hand." Gu Han finally raised his head and looked directly into the statement's eyes, "Suddenly I really want to say something."
"What?" Statement pricked up its ears.
"Thank you for remembering me." Gu Han sighed softly, he became strong again after a moment of weakness, and it was still the powerful soul that ruled.
"That's my honor." The statement murmured, "Everyone who can find their lover is a godsend, and I am very lucky. Besides," he paused, as if he had finally recovered his IQ and EQ , Restart the arrears of double Q, "3000 million can't buy you."
"So I should be lucky, I'm still very valuable." Gu Han's voice was lightly teasing, his body leaned forward slightly, the distance between the two of them got closer, and the sound of breathing intertwined.
There was a sudden commotion on the other side, exclamations mixed with whispered conversations, which instantly attracted the attention of Gu Han and the statement, and heard a woman's sharp voice scolding, the scolding was ugly.
Gu Han immediately walked over there, because he saw that the other person being scolded was Yuan Tong, who had been working with him happily.
There was no one around Yuan Tong to help her, she stood there alone, her whole body was wet, water dripped from her cheeks, and her clothes were also wet.The dress on her was originally made of white chiffon, so it was a little transparent after being splashed like this.Showing a graceful figure, there are many people watching the show around, but no one stepped forward to help her.
"Vixen!" the woman scolded.
Yuan Tong's face was pale, his hands were trembling, and his voice suppressed his anger, "Please respect yourself."
"Miss who snatches other people's men, vixen, bitch, bastard, didn't your mother teach you how to behave?" The woman was still swearing, and the hall gradually formed a circle around the two of them.
Gu Han quickly walked through the crowd, came to Yuan Tong, took off his coat, covered Yuan Tong, took out a handkerchief, and asked Yuan Tong to wipe the water off his face.
Chen Shu followed closely behind him, when he saw Gu Han taking off his clothes to protect Yuan Tong, his heart began to feel bitter again, but he didn't have time to taste why, the situation in front of him did not allow him to hurt the spring and the autumn.Because the other woman was too arrogant and too much.
"So you're still eating what's in the pot and looking at what's in the bowl." The woman glanced at Gu Han proudly, "Does Qiao Xuanyao know you're so stupid?"
Gu Han turned around and stood up straight, staring at the woman in front of him, he was slightly blind, just like Shu Lu Chi, he didn't care about women's appearance, "Please pay attention to your words."
"Yo, the adulterer fucked me, that's enough."
Gu Han hid Yuan Tong behind him, stepped forward, stopped the woman from pushing Yuan Tong, and said sharply, "He Wei, don't make such an ugly scene!"
He Wei paused her hands, as if she couldn't believe it, "Statement, have you even been bribed by him! She can do her best by herself. It's just a fuck!"
"That's enough." Yuan Tong put on Gu Han's clothes, straightened up, and glanced at He Wei expressionlessly. There was no jealousy or anger in her eyes, but no contempt in her eyes, as if she was looking at a A dead man, a loser, "why come to me and embarrass me? Don't you know what kind of person Qiao Xuanyao is? Opportunities are seized by people. If you can't catch them, you can only be brushed off. Don't blame anyone. people."
She took two steps forward, her high-heeled shoes stepped on the ground and made a sharp "duk-tuk" sound. The rhythm was not too fast or slow. She leaned close to He Wei and lowered her voice, as if she only wanted to hear the two people, but the people who were close There will be a voice that can be vaguely heard saying: "Do you know why I don't fight back, because you won't give me the feeling of success if you fight back, you are a loser, you never know how to catch, and you only rely on this It's useless to attack me with a low-level method, because I'm not afraid of it. The worse you do, the more despicable your method is, it will only tip the scales of everyone towards me."
He Wei's complexion changed, and she opened her mouth to fight back, but she was stopped by the cold light in Yuan Tong's eyes. She really came here with a broken heart, and her best time was mixed up. But was broken up again, Qiao Xuanyao directly gave a sum of money for a flat, patted his ass and left.
Why can't she ask for something in return when she's invested in her feelings? !He Wei's career as an artist began to decline from this time, and at this time Qiao Xuanyao had a new lover.
That's right, Qiao Xuanyao doesn't get married and doesn't want children. She always wears a condom when she goes to bed, and doesn't leave anyone with the chance to have children.How many people want to marry into a wealthy family and become a young mistress, without worrying about everything.How many people regard the entertainment circle as a pedal and jump from a branch to become a phoenix?Qiao Xuanyao stayed with her for three months, and it is said that he is already the number one lover in terms of length of time. Unfortunately, he went on a field trip in the middle, and immediately dumped her after he came back, without any reason.
Then Yuan Tong was promoted, almost to the sky.
Countless people behind are discussing in low voices, and they don't know whether it is ridicule or ridicule, or they are just watching other people's jokes here, just as a pastime after dinner, or someday they will raise it to blackmail and step on it by the way, but they just It's better to be able to walk, to step on others - or at least promise not to step on yourself.
He Wei was not reconciled, she wanted to yell at the people behind her, "What's there to talk about!" But she also knew that she was making a fool of herself, and she wanted to drag Yuan Tong into the water, but Yuan Tong used this method , countered her so easily.
Who would care who took care of her?The circle of laughing at the poor but not laughing at the prostitutes, as long as they don't get caught on the spot, everything can be cleaned up with rumors, because they have power.
Without the umbrella, He Wei is nothing.
When Chu Heng heard the single-person quarrel below, he felt something was wrong. He descended the spiral staircase and heard He Wei's insult. His face darkened, and he walked straight to the center of the crowd.
Yuan Tong saw him, nodded to him, and bowed slightly, "Sorry Mr. Chu, I think I need to excuse myself."
Seeing the coat she was wearing, Chu Heng said to Gu Han, "Send her off for me." Then he said to Yuan Tong, "I'm sorry about tonight's matter, I will take care of it."
"Mr. Qiao won't know about this." Yuan Tong whispered as if whispering, she didn't want the matter to become a big deal, so she lifted the clothes on her shoulders and left in a hurry.
After listening to Chu Heng's words, Gu Han went to see Yuan Tong off, stating that he did not follow Gu Han, but just watched his back leave.
He knew that Gu Han would still come back.
Yuan Tong took out his mobile phone and found that the mobile phone was wet and the screen was completely black.
"Can I borrow my phone?" Yuan Tong raised her lowered head, her eye circles were a little red, there was water in the middle, her nose was a little stuffy, and Gu Han could hear faint crying.
He took out his mobile phone, stretched out his hand, and listened to Yuan Tong's speech. The other party seemed to be the driver of Mr. Qiao. Yuan Tong asked him to pick him up in advance, but he hung up after speaking. Gu Han was a little confused, because he seemed to be the driver. I heard the words "Yes, Second Miss".
He persuaded himself that this was just an ordinary address, Yuan Tong suddenly laughed "puchi" at this moment, Gu Han was a little puzzled.
He didn't ask, however.
The moon in the sky sank into the evening mist, and there was such silence between the two of them, the lights inside the door were bright, the bustle was bustling, with fragrant shoulders and skirts.
But there is only such a scenery outside the door, beauties and knights.
"Are you okay?" Gu Han asked Yuan Tong.
"I'll forget about it soon, because it's not worth thinking about." Yuan Tong answered seriously, as if she was answering her life, and she was determined to make a choice that she would not regret. "Since you want a lot of compliments, you should How much slander must be resisted."
"You are strong." Gu Han has never praised a woman like this before. It is hard to imagine that Yuan Tong, who is only a woman in her early twenties, who can even be called a girl, can face humiliation so calmly, and has no choice to use it. She used the sharpest language to fight back. She put herself in the position of the weak on the surface, but she has the mentality of the strong. If such a person is not successful, who can succeed?
"Isn't there a saying that people in the world slander me, bully me, humiliate me, laugh at me, despise me, despise me, hate me, lie to me, how to deal with it? Just bear him, let him, let him, avoid him, endure He, respect him, ignore him, how long will you stay and look at him?" Yuan Tong smiled, the confidence in his eyes was admirable.
Gu Han doesn't know what happened to her past, but she will definitely do well in the future.
"You are an admirable man."
"Didn't Tolstoy say that life is a struggle between day and night. If you don't work hard to go up, you will be crushed one day, and go back to zero. That's too scary." Yuan Tong said softly Answer, looking into the distance is like looking at a dream, a future web woven by oneself.
The car is coming.
"Thank you." Seeing that the car was approaching, Yuan Tong turned around to express his gratitude to Gu Han.
A tall, handsome man in his 30s got out of the car door, "A Tong."
When Yuan Tong saw him, his eyes were inexplicable, but he made a perfect smile in an instant, mixed with the unique aura of a woman in love, perhaps because the transformation was too perfect and too natural, but it showed that there was nothing but a trace of unreality .
"Brother," Yuan Tong took the initiative to step forward, "Why are you here?"
"I heard you called Wei Wei. I just happened to be fine, so I came here." He took a step back and looked at Yuan Tong, his face darkened, "What happened?"
Yuan Tong smiled, "It's nothing, I accidentally knocked over the water glass."
Qiao Xuanyao obviously didn't believe this excuse, "Did you deliberately pour the water glass towards yourself?"
"Obviously very cool." Yuan Tong replied, Qiao Xuanyao took out a coat from the back of the car, put it on Yuan Tong, frowned and looked at the clothes taken off Yuan Tong, "Whose is this?"
"Mr. Gu's." Yuan Tong tugged on the overcoat he was wearing again.
Qiao Xuanyao turned to Gu Han and said politely and distantly: "Thank you for taking care of Ah Tong. I will find someone to clean the clothes and send them back to you."
Yuan Tong got into the car and sat in the back seat, the car sped away like a gust of wind, Gu Han didn't know why, but felt a little sad.
"Still standing here, aren't you afraid of catching a cold?" Statement appeared from behind at some point, with another piece of clothing in his hands, and put it on for Gu Han with his own hands. Gu Han wanted to stop him, so he put his hands on his shoulders, However, he accidentally bumped into Chen, his body was very warm, he might have stood here for so long that he didn't feel the chill.However, at this moment, the cold wind was blowing in, and there was ice in his bones.
"I forgot for a while." Gu Han smiled.
The statement's face was dimmed by the light, and there was an invisible loss in his eyes.
"Go back to the lobby or find a place to sit down?" Statement didn't open his mouth to continue to ask questions about Yuan Tong. When he came out, Chu Heng handed him a key and said that if he didn't want to come back, he could go directly to the fourth floor from the side, and leave room there. Okay room.
The statement readily accepted, after all, just now because Gu Han stood up for Yuan Tong, others didn't know what to say.Going to listen to their gossip now, it is better to find a place to rest, after all, the heat in the hall is not as hot as the room, so Gu Han can recover easily.
"Find a place to sit down." Gu Han didn't want to go back and listen to all kinds of slander in people's hearts, but he wanted to be respectful on the surface.Although sometimes this is etiquette and a statement, but it can be avoided, why do you have to rush to be abused?
Statement is leading the way, and the back looks a little bleak.He walked two steps higher than Gu Han, but Gu Han stopped suddenly, and the statement also stopped.
"Did you misunderstand something?" Gu Han frowned.
"I, did I cause trouble to you?" The statement asked with some difficulty, and now he suddenly worried that he was wishful thinking, and Gu Han just couldn't bear to refuse him.
The author has something to say: ————————
Entering V has been updated, are you happy reading?
After V, I will keep this update. I will bring the saved manuscript down from the sky and land on your horseback~
The part of the play in this play is added as the change of the relationship between the two, I hope you like it~
Now into normal joke time.
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Found two wifi heart plugs.
One is called: "Hey, where are my little meow and little Wang?"
The other called: "If you have the ability, you can connect."
Of course my wifi is called "Donottouchme"
The wifi settings in our dormitory are the same as the school network ^^
Can you guess our wifi password?
you guess?