i don't miss you very much

Chapter 10 Yang Mo's First Love

In three years, neither too long nor too short, they were all admitted to Luo University.

Naturally, they were not only referring to Gong Xuan and Shen Longhua, but also Li Xian and... Xiao Junzheng.

Everyone has changed in three years, but the one who has changed the most is Gong Xuan.He who used to be silent every day now advances and retreats between various activities with a decent smile every day.The most worth mentioning is that he and Li Xian are together.

They were together so openly and aboveboard.Li Xian's father didn't care about him, so naturally he didn't intervene, but to Yang Mo's surprise, Gong Xuan's father even acquiesced in his son's behavior after knowing about it.The girls at the school were surprised for a while, and immediately turned into wolves, staring at the interaction between Gong Li and the two of them every day.To say that the only opponent is probably Li Xian's younger brother - Li You who has been in love with Gong Xuan since junior high school.

Gong Xuan's only attitude towards this was to say to Li You with a smile: "Don't make trouble." Then he looked affectionately at Li Xian who was beside him with a faint smile.

Gong Xuan and Li Xian were together, and Yang Mo breathed a sigh of relief inexplicably.Even he himself didn't know what was wrong, his heart felt inexplicably relaxed.

This feeling of relaxation, especially when seeing Xiao Junzheng walking alone, felt even stronger.

He saw Xiao Junzheng walking alone on the campus more than once, and when he saw him, he smiled slightly, but he ignored him and walked past him with a cold face.After confirming that he had gone far, he turned his head and looked at the way he had come, feeling both joy and loss in his heart.

Once, he was far away, and when he turned around, he suddenly found that Xiao Jun was following him.He stood not far away, followed him quietly, and when he turned his head, he smiled as if he had insight into Yang Mo's behavior, and Yang Mo fled in shock.

He wanted to ask Gong Xuan, but thought of Li Xian beside Gong Xuan, so he gave up.Thinking of Shen Longhua's carefree look, he was probably more ignorant than himself, so he asked Chu Zixiao, who had a nickname.

"Tell me," he said hesitantly, "you hate a person, seeing him is not happy, but not seeing him is even more uncomfortable, why?"

Chu Zixiao embraced his new girlfriend, the corners of his mouth turned up, and he glanced at Yang Mo: "Don't ask me, I don't understand love."

Yang Mo looked at his back and didn't understand what he meant, so he asked the boss Chen Sheng again.

After hearing what he said, Chen Sheng got up and opened the window. Looking at the ice and snow outside the window, he turned his head with a smile and said, "Spring is coming soon."

Yang Mo couldn't understand that feeling any more.

When he left, he seemed to hear Chen Sheng sighing softly from behind: "Spring is the season suitable for love."

After asking two people, Yang Mo didn't understand at all, but became more confused. What made him even more at a loss was that one night, he dreamed of Xiao Junzheng, like when he was 13 years old, naked to the waist, opened the door, hair The water droplets on the clothes dripped on the lean chest, slid over the abdomen with abdominal muscles, and flowed to the lower body surrounded by the towel.

When he woke up from the dream, he didn't have the same indignation towards Xiao Junzheng who was so thin but muscular, but an unspeakable desire. Looking at the bed sheet stained with semen, he was silent for a long time.

He never thought that he would have a wet dream because he dreamed of a man.

He felt that something was wrong with him, but he didn't know what was wrong.

This kind of feeling, until meeting Gu Cheng, there is a feeling of sudden enlightenment.

He suddenly remembered that, as a perfect man, he had never been in a relationship.

It must be that Gong Xuan and Li Xian gave him too much stimulation, which made him have such a ridiculous dream and have such a ridiculous behavior.

Must be, he was sure.

He began to observe Gu Cheng, she was a cute girl with shoulder-length hair and a slight smile.When she saw Yang Mo for the first time, facing Yang Mo's indifference, she shrank her neck in fear, but her eyes would look at Yang Mo tenaciously, even if the fear in her eyes was clearly seen by Yang Mo.After knowing Yang Mo for a long time, she would ignore Yang Mo's indifference and ask Yang Mo to help her move books or something.All of this made Yang Mo feel extremely familiar.

Gu Cheng began to occupy his heart bit by bit, leaving him no time to take care of Xiao Junzheng.It wasn't until one time when he looked at Gu Cheng from a distance and Xiao Junzheng passed by him to greet him that he suddenly remembered that he hadn't intentionally passed Xiao Junzheng for a long time, nor had he had those strange dreams.

But this is normal, isn't it?

Xiao Jun followed his gaze to see Gu Cheng, didn't say anything, just stood there silently, the corners of his always smiling lips flattened for the first time.

Yang Mo looked at him looking at Gu Cheng's deep gaze, feeling inexplicably guilty.

Xiao Junzheng left without saying a word, Yang Mo looked at his back, standing upright and somewhat isolated, dragging a long shadow under the setting sun.It was really a very long shadow, dragging from under his feet to in front of Yang Mo's.

When Yang Mo came back to look at Gu Cheng, he found that the playful girls had already left.

There are swallows returning to their nests flying across the sky, and the sky is slightly dark in the evening.

The days passed smoothly, and he was still observing Gu Cheng, but the frequency gradually decreased.It wasn't until one day that Gu Cheng lowered his head shyly and told him that he was in a relationship, that he realized what he had missed.

"Who is it?" He found that he didn't feel heartache, but was shocked, and even a little curious about who chased such a cute girl.

"Senior knows me too." Gu Cheng said with a playful smile, and Yang Mo suddenly had a bad feeling in his heart.

"It's Senior Junzheng." Gu Cheng continued, "I heard that Senior Junzheng and Senior Yang Mo live together, is that true?"

"Yes." Yang Mo forced himself to reply, and everything Gu Cheng said afterwards lost his voice.

He didn't know how he bid farewell to Gu Cheng, he wandered in the street in a daze, he didn't know who was dragged into the bar, and he didn't know why he got so drunk.

Someone hugged him, someone took him away, he opened his blurred eyes, and saw Xiao Jun holding him, walking coldly on the street.

He touched Xiao Junzheng's tightly pursed lips, Xiao Junzheng lowered his eyes to look at him, his voice was a little cold in the early summer night: "You are drunk."

Yang Mo's tears flowed down, he stared at Xiao Junzheng closely, struggled to get down from Xiao Junzheng's arms, supported the street lamp by the roadside, and asked Xiao Junzheng loudly: "Why?"

"No reason." Xiao Junzheng lowered his eyes, and the street lamp cast a shadow on his long eyelashes.

"Why do you want to fall in love with Gu Cheng?" He supported the street lamp, his legs were weak, and he slid down uncontrollably, but was held by Xiao Junzheng.

"Why do you want to fall in love with Gu Cheng..." Yang Mo repeated in a murmur, tears fell drop by drop, and stared at Xiao Junzheng with lifeless eyes, "Don't you know, I like..."

Before he could finish speaking, his lips were blocked by a soft thing.

Yang Mo watched in amazement that Xiao Junzheng attacked his lips, he felt his lips being bitten lightly by the other's teeth, Xiao Junzheng even stuck out his tongue, wiped his saliva on his lips, and then ate like a baby General permission to suck.

Yang Mo stared at Xiao Junzheng with wide eyes, the numbness from his lips mixed with the drunkenness in his brain, making him forget to think, and he was at a loss.He even actively stretched out his hands to wrap around Xiao Junzheng's neck, stuck out the tip of his tongue, and carefully licked Xiao Junzheng's lips.

Xiao Jun was breathing stagnantly, he held Yang Mo's hand tighter and tighter, pressed Yang Mo's chest tightly against his body, he took Yang Mo's tongue in his mouth, and sucked gently, the movement was slow and gentle .It wasn't until the tip of Yang Mo's tongue became numb that he pushed Yang Mo's tongue and inserted it into Yang Mo's mouth.

As soon as it entered Yang Mo's mouth, Xiao Junzheng's tongue was like a fish in water, exploring and licking Yang Mo's teeth and gums inside and outside. After sweeping up and down, he extended his tongue to the inside of Yang Mo's tongue, sliding and licking from inside to outside.

Being bitten, licked and sucked by him like this, Yang Mo felt dizzy, and leaned against Xiao Junzheng's body weakly.He opened his mouth wide, breathing hard under Xiao Junzheng's kiss.His tongue intertwined with Xiao Junzheng's, making a "tsk tsk" sound.

Xiao Jun is rolling up his tongue with his own, wrapping it in his mouth, turning up and down, left and right...

Under the dim streetlight, they didn't know how long they kissed, until Yang Mo passed out, and didn't say the phrase "Don't you know, I like you."

Yes, he likes him. After knowing that he was dating Gu Cheng, he suddenly found out that he likes Xiao Junzheng.He paid attention to Gu Cheng only because Gu Cheng was like Xiao Junzheng——the cowardly but strong Xiao Junzheng when he was a child.

He has been nostalgic for him and his past.

If, on that day, grandpa's car hadn't been in a car accident and mother hadn't died, how good would it be?

If he had known that he liked Xiao Junzheng, how great would it be?

……

It's a pity that there is no if, he didn't know before, but now he can't say.

When he woke up the next day, he and Xiao Junzheng agreed tacitly not to mention what happened last night.He was still walking indifferently on the campus, and beside Xiao Junzheng, there was a figure of Gu Cheng Qiao Xiaoqian.

Every time I see it, it hurts my heart.

Later, the disaster came unexpectedly and violently like summer rain.

His father was imprisoned and sentenced to death for being involved in a bribery case, Gu Cheng committed suicide by jumping off a building, and he was sent to a mental hospital due to mental illness, and when he came out, he had already forgotten the fact that he liked Xiao Junzheng.

Later, I went abroad at public expense, returned to China, and took the position of general manager under the appreciation of the chairman's wife.Everything is progressing slowly and step by step.

Until that day, when he went to urge the documents, a photo slowly fell at his feet.

He lowered his head, Xiao Jun in the photo was smiling gently.

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