After being reborn, all I want to do is run away.

Chapter 231 The Dark Side of the Heart

"I'm going to take Guanbi to the records room in the war hall to check if there have been any similar missions in the past. Is there anyone who wants to come with me?" Bailu asked the three of them.

"I need to go back to Heart Lake," Ye Zhi said.

"Shen Xu, would you like to go to the library and take a look?" Li Xiaoyi asked Shen Xu.

"Alright, then Xiao Yi and I will go to the library!"

"Guanbi, you go with Shen Xu! I'll go to the files room with Xiao Yi. After all, it's too conspicuous for him to walk with Xiao Yi," Bai Lu suddenly said.

"Bai Lu, you're right. I almost forgot about this part. I'll have to trouble you, Guan Bi." Shen Xu then realized that he had almost made a big mistake.

"No trouble at all!" Guan Bi said with a smile. As expected, Miss Xiao Yi never disappoints when it matters. Although Miss Xiao Yi's eyes were a bit scary, they weren't directed at her.

Ye Zhi suddenly felt that she couldn't quite understand the relationship between the group.

On the way to the library, Shen Xu felt much more at ease walking with Guan Bi. If he had been walking with Li Xiaoyi and Bai Lu, he didn't know how many eyes would be staring at him. The only downside was that Guan Bi seemed to be a little too close to him.

Moreover, he had been trying to stay away from Guan Bi, but Guan Bi would always follow him and come closer. Guan Bi's loose hair would be blown by the wind and make his face feel a little itchy.

"Guanbi, aren't we getting a little too close?" Shen Xu couldn't help but ask.

"Is it close? But I still feel it's a bit far." As she spoke, Guan Bi's body gently pressed against his arm, making his arm feel a soft touch.

This made Shen Xu's heart skip a beat, and he immediately pulled his arm back to avoid touching Guan Bi again. But before he could do anything, Guan Bi tightly grabbed his arm, allowing his arm to fully feel the softness between Guan Bi's breasts.

Shen Xu was a little confused. Although his first reaction was to break free, he gave up the idea after trying it for a while.

Because once he makes a move, he will inevitably touch Guan Bi's sensitive areas again, and Xiao Ruohuang's words about Guan Bi's innate superhuman strength are not false at all. If Guan Bi does not want to let go of him, he will definitely not be able to break free.

"Please don't struggle," Guan Bi said, her face flushed and her head bowed.

Guan Bi's words left Shen Xu somewhat stunned.

"Guanbi, I feel like you're a completely different person now compared to when you were with Bailu," Shen Xu asked, frowning.

"So, do you prefer me when I'm with Miss, or me now?" Guan Bi asked with a smile, resting her head on Shen Xu's shoulder.

"To be honest, you seem more genuine now. Are you under too much pressure being around Bai Lu? But I think Bai Lu treats you quite well!" Shen Xu asked with some doubt. There is no love or hate without a reason in the world, and he wanted to know why Guan Bi did this.

“No matter how good Miss is to me, I am still just Miss’s maid. I can never become someone who is on equal footing with Miss Xiao Yi. Miss will never understand this. I can never be friends with her.” Guan Bi closed her eyes and rubbed her hair against Shen Xu’s cheek.

Sensing the fragrance of Guan Bi's hair, Shen Xu couldn't help but feel a little distracted. He could only keep his mind focused and continue to ask, "Have you ever thought about leaving Bai Lu? I think she wouldn't disagree."

"The kindness of Miss's family to our family is immeasurable. It is a debt of gratitude that I could never repay even if I took care of Miss for a lifetime. I will never leave Miss," Guan Bi said very seriously.

Upon hearing this, Shen Xu frowned. No wonder Guan Bi's heart was somewhat dark. Guan Bi was no worse than Bai Lu, and in some aspects, she was even better than Bai Lu.

They grew up together and should have been inseparable, but one was the mistress and the other a maid; the difference in their status was an insurmountable chasm between them.

Shen Xu believed that Guan Bi had always been Bai Lu's background figure since childhood. Even though a large part of Bai Lu's achievements should be attributed to Guan Bi, people would only remember Bai Lu and not Guan Bi.

Guan Bi didn't not want to resist, but the kindness of Bai Lu's family was suffocating her, making her feel that even having thoughts of resistance was a sin. She could only suppress all her dark thoughts deep in her heart.

He seemed to become an outlet for Guanbi's rebellious emotions. Guanbi probably got a sense of pleasure from him, like snatching something from Bailu, and mistakenly took this comfortable feeling as affection for him.

But what good is knowing Guanbi's predicament? It's Guanbi herself who's unwilling to let herself go. If he brings things up, it will only make Guanbi hate him too.

Moreover, he was very worried about Guan Bi's condition; he feared that she would either erupt in silence or die in silence.

He couldn't imagine what Guan Bi would do if the darkness in her heart were ever exposed, since the girl's heart was already quite dark.

"Guanbi, there are no debts of gratitude that can never be repaid in this world; there are only shackles that we put on ourselves. There should also be no distinction between master and servant in this world. Although I am powerless to change this, I know clearly that this is wrong."

When you are constantly trapped by your identity as a maid, first remember that you are a person, your soul is free, and there is no distinction between you and Bailu as master and servant. You can love, hate, and roam freely anywhere.

You must repay Bailu's kindness, but repaying Bailu's kindness and maintaining your true character are not contradictory.

Even if you refute Bailu's orders, does that mean Bailu is always right? You are much smarter than her. Rejecting many of her foolish ideas and making up for her losses is also a way of repaying her kindness, isn't it?

When Bailu and I were playing rock-paper-scissors, you knew she had a strong gambling addiction, yet you didn't stop her.

The sword chose her to attack the Golden Rainbow Society. I don't believe you didn't notice the conspiracy behind it. Why didn't you try your best to dissuade her?

And because of a prank she suddenly played, she ruined the meal you had carefully prepared for me, which led to us parting on bad terms, and I still feel resentful about it now.

I believe there are many more examples like this. What Bailu needs is not a maid who listens to her in everything, but a friend who can help her fill in the gaps in her knowledge.

Do you think a subservient maid would be a greater help to her, or a friend who could veto many of her foolish ideas?

Finally, Shen Xu gently pulled his arm out of Guan Bi's embrace and then breathed a deep sigh of relief.

Seeing that Guan Bi did not stop him from pulling his arm away, Shen Xu knew that Guan Bi had taken half of what he said to heart, and Bai Lu would have to cooperate on the other half.

It was impossible to completely change Guan Bi's mind with a few words. He planned to start by making Guan Bi dare to refute Bai Lu, so that she would know that she and Bai Lu were not in a strict master-servant relationship.

Just as Shen Xu was trying to get away from Guan Bi, Guan Bi suddenly hugged him and buried her head in his neck. "Shen Xu, Miss is right, you really are a bastard! So I'm going to tell Miss that you called her stupid as a pig."

Feeling the warmth of the girl in his arms, Shen Xu took a deep breath. He knew he couldn't provoke Guan Bi right now, so he gently pushed Guan Bi away and said with a smile, "Then I'll tell your young lady that you molested me in the street."

"You..." Guan Bi blushed instantly and then hugged Shen Xu again.

"Shen Xu, it feels so good in your arms! What should I do if I don't want to leave?" Guan Bi said softly, and then Shen Xu felt a warm sensation on his neck.

Shen Xu hurriedly pushed Guan Bi away, then turned around and said, "Let's hurry to the library!" He felt his breathing becoming rapid.

When Guan Bi saw Shen Xu's reaction, she couldn't help but lick her red lips slightly, and a beautiful smile that she had never shown before appeared on her blushing face.