After crossing, I was miserable.

Chapter 405 The past

"sorry!"

The environment he lived in since childhood was like an invisible net that bound him tightly.

This net not only restricted his freedom of movement, but also shaped his cautious and thoughtful character.

Whether facing trivial matters in daily life or critical moments concerning major life decisions, he has to think more and weigh the pros and cons to avoid making mistakes.

Even the emperor uncle, who was high above him and cared for him very much, seemed to have unknown purposes and calculations hidden behind every act of concern.

This complex and delicate relationship made him walk on thin ice. He dared not easily believe anyone's kindness, and he always habitually explored the possible motives and intentions behind every action.

Over time, he became more and more sensitive and suspicious, his mind as meticulous as a fine spider web, and any slight movement would arouse his vigilance and reaction.

No matter when and where, no matter who he meets or what events he experiences, he will involuntarily and subconsciously think about the final outcome.

Even for those who treated him kindly and amiably, he would immediately begin to wonder about the motives and intentions behind their behavior, as if some conditioned reflex had been triggered.

This way of thinking seemed to have been deeply imprinted in his soul, becoming a habit and instinctive reaction that was difficult to change.

But in this "love story" that he walked into first, he didn't want to do that.

It was clearly he who was moved first, and it was clearly he who agreed to the marriage arranged by his uncle the Emperor.

It was obvious that he was selfish and wanted to be with the other person.

However, whenever something happens, he will analyze it like a conditioned reflex, and he despises and is ashamed of himself for being like this.

"sorry!"

He will completely open his heart in the future, stop doubting, and interact with others sincerely.

He did not say these words to Qian Duoduo. He felt that no matter how much he said, it would be better to do more. Let's see how he performs in the future.

He suddenly felt greedy for this brief warmth.

Qian Duoduo did not push Chu Yan away. It was just a hug. There was no need to make a fuss.

But this was a huge shock to Chu Yan.

Qian Duoduo did not hug him back, but just patted Chu Yan's back gently.

Then he said slowly:

"Okay, I believe you. But you have to remember that from now on, every word you say is a promise to me.

Because for me, being deceived is the most intolerable thing in the world.

As long as you can be honest with me in the future, no matter what problems we encounter, we can sit down and discuss solutions.

But if I caught you lying to me even once, the consequences would be very serious.

So please treasure my trust.”

"Okay, I remember."

Qian Duoduo suddenly wanted to laugh. How could the two of them talk about such a serious topic?

Shouldn't most young lovers be affectionate and constantly expressing their feelings at the beginning? Why do they seem to have experienced a huge hurt and betrayal?

"Are you sure you didn't secretly bring any women back?" Qian Duoduo suddenly wanted to let go of Chu Yan's arms and look into his eyes and ask again, but she didn't push him.

Not only did he not push her, Chu Yan's arms suddenly became tighter, and Qian Duoduo wanted to roll his eyes again.

Chu Yan's mouth corners slightly raised, he counted three numbers silently in his heart, gently let go of Qian Duoduo, his cheeks slightly red,

"Feel sorry!"

But his eyes were not looking at Qian Duoduo. He felt that he was like a reckless person now, but he was extremely happy in his heart.

But he didn't give Qian Duoduo a chance to speak. Chu Yan continued:

"The military camp in the north is the Tiger Camp where I once served. When I was very young, I begged my father to allow me to go to the military camp for training."

Chu Yan looked at Qian Duoduo and smiled self-deprecatingly. Although his expression looked like one of relief, Qian Duoduo felt that it was a sad relief.

"It is difficult for an unfavored prince to live in the palace."

Chu Yan never expected that after going through so much trouble and following his mother's wishes to return to his uncle the emperor, his situation did not get better.

Once upon a time, he had gone to great lengths to escape from the Qin imperial palace, which was as deep as the sea and as dangerous as the abyss. He was delighted to think that he could escape from the intrigues and struggles in the palace.

When he returned to his uncle the emperor, the only relative he missed was his mother's beloved younger brother, the emperor.

However, as fate would have it, he was ultimately unable to escape the cage of fate and was once again trapped in the Chu palace.

At this moment, he suddenly realized: no matter which country's palace you are in, its essence is a terrible place that devours human nature.

This place is like an endless dark forest, seemingly calm on the surface, but actually lurking with turbulent waves;

Every step forward may lead to a trap, and if you are not careful you will be doomed.

He couldn't help but sigh: "Wherever there are people, there is the world of martial arts!"

In this world, profit is always the goal pursued by everyone. Especially when this goal is the supreme imperial power, it arouses people's endless desire and greed to the maximum extent.

In order to fight for these, people resort to all means, engage in intrigue, and even kill each other.

One bloody battle after another swept in like a storm, dragging countless innocent people into it and making them victims of this cruel struggle.

Chu Yan saw Qian Duoduo's face full of worry, took a deep breath, smiled and said:

"My father didn't like me very much at that time, so he didn't care about me. By chance, I met the then deputy general, General Zhao Long.

With his help, I successfully entered the military camp.

But only a few people at that time knew my true identity.

Those who know will also weigh the pros and cons, and no one will give any special treatment to a prince who has no mother and no background.

Because of this, I can only embark on the journey step by step like many ordinary soldiers.

At first, I also fought side by side with the soldiers on the battlefield with simple weapons.

Every charge into battle makes me realize more deeply the cruelty of war and the fragility of life.

However, it is these difficult experiences that have tempered my will and honed my abilities.

As time went by, I emerged from one battle after another with my own wisdom and courage.

Gradually, I was no longer that unknown pawn, but gradually became the focus of everyone's attention.

But even so, I still maintain a low-key and humble style, keep my original intention in mind, and continue to move forward towards higher goals.

Because I know that the journey has been difficult and only through continuous efforts can I prove my ability and value. "

Chu Yan stood quietly under the winding corridor, like a silent statue.

He raised his head slightly and looked straight at the bright moon hanging high in the night sky.

The moonlight poured down like water, gently caressing his chiseled face and making it look exceptionally bright.

The cold light seemed to cover Chu Yan's face with a layer of silver gauze, making his already deep eyes look even more mysterious and charming.

At this moment, he seemed to merge into this peaceful moonlit night, becoming the protagonist of a beautiful painting.