After dressing as a sick and weak villain

Chapter 105

The light of the knife flashed past, and a long gash was drawn on the lifeless body.

Jiang Yanchi's figure is as tall and straight as expected. The mountains standing silently at the end of winter are blue and withered, and they are extremely chilling.

A little bit of blood dripped from the tip of the sword.

In the dark red blood, there is Su Mingan's ashen-like eyes.

He and the little emperor in front of him are very clear.

In this tug-of-war that consumed too many lives, no one was a winner after all.

Jiang Yanchi didn't directly kill Su Ming'an, but within a few days, news came that Mrs. Su was seriously ill.The death of Zhao Lingqu extinguished the last gleam of fire in Su Ming'an's heart.

Illness comes like a mountain.

He suddenly dreamed that more than 20 years ago, on the icy desert of the northern border, the down-and-out prince who was exiled was young and vigorous, holding a long knife and carving the outline of the entire Wei Dynasty on the loess bricks that were frozen as hard as iron.

He said, believe it or not, one day, I will make Da Wei like this.

As he spoke, he held the knife and stretched out, extending the border line.

He also said, if I have the chance to be emperor, I will definitely, definitely be able to do it.

Su Ming'an didn't know why at this moment, he thought of the young man who stood like a pine in a piece of sackcloth in the cold wind.

"Then what if you can't be emperor."

The boy snorted lightly from his throat: "I can be."

"You have no backer behind you, and now the crown prince is in full swing, and you have been stripped of your military power and exiled to this bitter cold place. What should I do..."

"Go to the capital, I will go back."

The winter sun shines warmly on him, "I will leave a thick and colorful pen in the annals of history. I will show the people of Wei the vast ice field, the boundless desert, and the towering peaks. I will be—— To become the emperor who is favored by all ages and will be remembered forever by generations to come."

At that time, Emperor Xuanhe was only 16 years old.

Who would have thought that it was such a high-spirited young man who later single-handedly brewed the Yong'an Rebellion that horrified the world.

The complete destruction of the Yue clan also disrupted the internal imperial power of the Wei Dynasty, causing the Qiang people to lose most of their land, and also split the Northern Huns into thirteen tribes. Since then, endless internal fighting has begun.

Is he smart?

clever.

He did it.

He allowed the territory of Wei to extend to an unprecedented remote land.

But the price is too high.

How many people's fate has changed since then, and how many people's pain has been entangled from generation to generation.

Jinghe early spring of the second year.Su Ming'an, the Grand Tutor of the Four Dynasties, was seriously ill, and Emperor Jinghe went to visit him.When he was dying, he saw that the emperor said something in Su Ming'an's ear, causing him to vomit another mouthful of blood in an instant.

He lost his breath in an instant.

The green willow sprouts, and the old pile grows tillers.

It is another year of spring, with new flowers blooming.

In the imperial mausoleum, lush new grass has grown outside the new queen's tomb, and white flowers bloom like stars.

This was the ninth time Xu Chunmu saw him.He led the war horse that had been with him for more than ten years, dressed in plain white linen, and offered a pot of tea to the tomb.

"So, you are my brother."

He lowered his eyes dejectedly, and reached out to brush some dust off the stele, "Why didn't you tell me earlier."

I did.

to you.

His fingernails scratched across the stele, leaving a white mark.

"I have no memory of those things. I also don't know anything about the Shen family...Your life has been ruined by hatred, but I live carefree in the north as the Xu family. I'm sorry, Brother. Now I finally understand why my grandfather kept me from going to Beijing for the rest of my life, why he gave my eldest brother the position, but gave me 30 military power. Why did you clearly never see me in the last life, but you were willing to fight for me? Die for the crime. Why did you do so many evils in this life, but you are only gentle with me..."

Xu Chunmu took off the wine bag tied around his waist, and took a few gulps.

Spicy into the throat, but like a handful of ice balls, freezing the internal organs.

The corners of her beautiful eyes were moistened.

"Chu Xie."

"If in that big fire, you were the one picked up by the Xu family, and I was the one picked up by Su Ming'an."

The moisture gradually condensed into one place, making the nose sour.

"Will you be happier in your life?"

A drunken feeling spread over the top of his head.Xu Chunmu lowered his head, and took another two sips sadly. He who had never cried before now had two clear tears left behind.

"Why was it you who were picked up by Su Ming'an because you were weak? He didn't know that you didn't live long, why did he raise you like this... At that time, you were only a five-year-old child, and I just Born... What did we do wrong? Why have we lived like this for two lifetimes? Why is it that I will always be the only one who is saved..."

"Why do it all over again, your life still has no hope."

A gust of warm wind blows, blowing a tear from his chin.

Like a warm hand wiping away his tears.

At sunset, he got up and led the horse.

"Brother, I'm going back to the northern border. This time, I'm here to say goodbye to you. I understand the letter you sent me. I will guard the northern border for thousands of miles and return the real peace and prosperity of the Great Wei. The Changming Army exists for a long time." On this day, I will no longer teach the Northern Hungarian cavalry to take a step into the territory of our Great Wei Kingdom."

Get on the horse, look back and take another look, "I will come to see you again next winter."

Swing the whip away, and the road dust is flying.

***

This is Shen Chu's third visit to Dr. Chen's clinic.

Back to the present world for half a month.

But Shen Chu felt in his heart that it was longer than his ten years in Dawei.

This is the last psychological counseling.

Dr. Chen said that the limit that treatment can achieve is about the same.

For the next many things, I have to slowly mobilize my emotions in my daily life, so that I can gradually achieve the effect of complete recovery.

"So. It's not a certain thing, but a certain person... All your incidents of breaking through the emotional threshold are related to that person, right." The doctor summed it up.

"seems like it."

Dr. Chen rustled and recorded in his handwriting, without raising his head, he continued to ask.

"What kind of man is he?"

"He is an impulsive person, very smart, but like a child... In fact, he is also a child. Many times I don't know what he is thinking, and I have no way to understand him. At first, I just He is treated like a crowd, but he always finds ways to break into my life, wants to intervene in my life, and even, I can feel that he wants to control my life."

The doctor frowned slightly, as if thinking about something.

"Control your life?"

"Yes, he should have a strong desire to control. He keeps interfering with my goals, constantly trying to impose his wishes on me..."

"Then what is his wish?"

Shen Chu hesitated for a moment: "Maybe, marry me and get me." When he said this, he was a little unexpectedly embarrassed, and seeing that the door was closed, he said, "His possessiveness, Very controlling."

The doctor pushed the glasses frame and thought for a while.

"It doesn't seem to be the case."

"Doctor, you haven't seen him before, how do you know he's not like this."

The doctor smiled and said slowly, "If you really think so in your heart, then your reason will give priority to judging him as a dangerous person, and you will not let your heart approach him and trust him. It is even less likely to be He manipulates emotions to the point where they break through the threshold again and again."

"Think about it carefully, what is his wish?"

Shen Chu seemed to become a little anxious.

The doctor didn't press to ask, but just patiently waited for him to think.

But Shen Chu gradually panicked in this kind of thinking, and even had a bit of evasion.

"I don't know what his desire is. I only know mine. I just want to save my sister. I..."

The doctor immediately calmed his ups and downs, and at the same time analyzed rationally, staring closely at his eyes, as if to spy into the depths of his heart.

The words are soft and tinged with a knife, which is aggressive to a certain extent.

As if trying to pry open his deepest intuition.

"Relax, you don't need to save anyone now, in fact, you can't save anyone."

"A person who won't hesitate, be sad, angry, or desperate can't even save himself, let alone talk about others. Mr. Shen, the most important thing for you now is to cooperate with me and cure your disease. Don't avoid my problem."

"Think about it again, ask your emotional judgment, ask your heart. Instead of simply making a rational analysis from that person's behavior. What exactly does that person want."

He settled down to think about this question again amidst the doctor's questioning.

Don't ask your reason, ask your emotions, ask your heart.

The author has something to say: There should be a second update today, everyone is safe and happy during the Dragon Boat Festival~

大结局是那种治愈向的，齁甜的那种纯糖我会放在番外。感谢在2021-06-1222:24:39~2021-06-1417:37:54期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 2 stargazing and drinking books;

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Qin Huai, LA14, Qing 1, Xiao Lulu 1;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：桃桃乌龙33瓶；灵え20瓶；一念之间、这里落墨、春风凝不到天涯、凉凉凉凉妤、快乐看文文、白夜猫、明初、刘sir不吃糖10瓶；咸口米花酥糖7瓶；初级小萌新一枚、长夜无荒、复水、小邮5瓶；小璐璐、小菲先生3瓶；秦淮、tyxymhltmmsyw1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!