When gentleness is worn into the ancient dog blood crematorium

Chapter 27 Don't Cry

Chi Baiwan leaned against the shower head in the bathroom, the warm water flowed over his body, his white complexion had several old wounds.

It was all thanks to Fu Sihan, as if all the violent and paranoid side of his life had been given to his lover, hurting him wantonly under the banner of possession.

Through the water mist, Chi Baiwan lowered his eyes and gently stroked his scars. In fact, they didn't hurt any more. It was just ugly, so ugly that he didn't even want to look at himself.

During the six months of being separated from Fu Sihan, he still had a hard time. Being an actor was very tiring. Fortunately, he earned money. Although it was not much, it was enough to live on, but it was still difficult to drag such a crooked body. point.

The mirror was filled with thick steam, Chi Baiwan wiped the mirror dry, looked at his face inside, and muttered to himself: "Dr. Lu Chen, hello, I'm very busy recently, but I'm eating well."

No, that's pretty stiff to say.

Lu Chen is his psychiatrist, and he has high hopes for his recovery.

Chi Baiwan thought about it for a while, and said, "Dr. Lu Chen, long time no see. The recipe you gave me is very useful. My depression has eased, and my stomach trouble has improved a lot."

Chi Baiwan recited it silently a few times, and said in his heart that it would be fine, and make a video call to Dr. Lu Chen later, trying to make his condition better.

Dr. Lu Chen is more dignified than ordinary psychiatrists, and every word he speaks needs to be considered. Chi Baiwan doesn't like to belittle others, so he tries to be polite.

However, he was afraid that today's diagnosis and treatment would disappoint Dr. Lu, because he was in a very bad condition.

His eyes stared blankly at himself in the mirror.

has it ended?

It's over.

He and Fu Sihan have broken up clearly and cleanly, and there is no relationship between them.

But why did he stop breathing the moment he saw him, and his eyes were hot?

He didn't hesitate to jump into the sea just to stand in front of him and tell Fu Sihan that I don't love you anymore.

But when this day really came, his heart was like a knife twisting instead.

Fu Sihan's every look and every word touched his heart, especially the moment he lowered his head to kiss his ankle, Chi Baiwan wanted to cry, and his desire to escape was rampant.

Very useless.

He couldn't forget how Fu Sihan hurt him.

So much so that when he left the auditorium, he fled in despair, went into the bathroom with his head covered, and rinsed under cold water for 3 minutes before he was so cold that he shivered.

Chi Baiwan doesn't have the energy to deal with anyone or anything now, he feels as if he is stupid and doesn't know what to do.

After Chi Baiwan took a shower, his footsteps were tired, and he pushed open the door with bare feet and went out, his body was still wet.

He simply put on a bath towel and got under the quilt weakly, with a long leg sticking out from the gap, and fiddled with the phone in a disinterested manner.

The room was quiet, Chi Baiwan only turned on the light in the bedroom, the living room outside was pitch black, and the table was full of snacks.

Huo Jue's assistant, Xiao Fang, bought it for him. Yan Fang is a man with a hot temper and is very caring. He probably bought him a supper right now.

Chi Baiwan heard a clattering sound from the snack bag, maybe the accumulated food fell down, but he didn't pay attention.

He is not in the mood to care.

His hands were trembling, so he had to give his arm a few times to force himself to calm down. He turned his body to rest on his arm, and made a video call to the psychiatrist Lu Chen.

The answer over there was quick. Lu Chen, who was wearing a white coat, was obviously still working overtime in the hospital. He pinched his brows, and his low tone was hard to be agitated.

"Ever, I'm sorry. I made an appointment to see a doctor today. I was too busy to call you in time. Don't think about it."

Lu Chen's voice was very low and gentle, and Chi Baiwan's heart slowed down along with him, "It's okay, Doctor Lu, if you have time now, let's start the treatment."

Lu Chen: "Ever, get ready, you have to remember that every time I call you that, you have to quickly enter the state, okay?"

Chi Baiwan smiled lightly, his peach blossom eyes curved, "Okay, Doctor Lu."

Lu Chen was silent on the other end of the phone for five seconds, and said calmly, "Who did you meet today? Let me hear if you have anything happy to say."

When Chi Baiwan heard the words, his smile faltered, he lowered his head and did not speak, his breathing became short of breath, and the blood vessels connecting his heart to his lungs twitched.

He trembled his lips, all the calmness he had just pretended was ruined.

"I'm sorry..." Chi Baiwan shook his head, "Doctor Lu, let's stop here today, I'm not in a good condition, I don't want to ruin your mood..."

Lu Chen said calmly, "Believe me, there are no secrets between us—"

Chi Baiwan bit his lower lip, and then, a hand stretched out from nowhere, and snatched his mobile phone.

Chi Baiwan looked back quickly, and his pupils suddenly shrank in a big circle.

It was Fu Sihan.

Fu Sihan's cheeks bullied Frost Saixue, cold and frightening, he stared probingly at Lu Chen outside the camera, and his guilt and remorse for Chi Baiwan turned into intense hatred in an instant.

He hated himself why he didn't find Chi Baiwan earlier, this gentle and kind canary is a fool at all, he can't even see such obvious ﹉sexual﹉hint﹉ hint.

"Who the hell are you?"

Lu Chen was scolded, Ying Ting's eyebrows frowned: "Who the hell are you?"

"Fu Sihan, return your phone to me!" Chi Baiwan hurriedly got up from the bed to grab the phone. For a moment, the bath towel fell off, and his whole body was completely exposed in front of Fu Sihan and Lu Chen.

Not only Fu Sihan, but Lu Chen also held his breath.

Seeing the man's breathing suddenly became heavy, Fu Sihan was furious, and said coldly to Lu Lu: "I don't care who you are or where you are, don't call him in the future, he won't be able to answer, if you dare to call, I will make you pay for it."

Lu Chen's tone was relaxed: "Are you wrong? Sir, what is your relationship with him? It sounds like he is your boyfriend."

"No." Chi Baiwan gritted his teeth and said, "We are not a couple, we... broke up."

Fu Sihan glanced back at him, and before Chi Baiwan snatched the phone, he said firmly, "We didn't break up, and I didn't agree."

Chi Baiwan was amazed at his thick skin, obviously he said that he wanted to marry Fang Miao, so he wanted to break up with him!

"Fu Sihan, let me say it again, you return the phone to me, you go out—"

Chi Baiwan was so anxious that his two long, thin, white legs dangled back and forth, making Fu Sihan dizzy and angry.

Especially Chi Baiwan's voice, which is as soft as soaking in water, threatening words are not threatening, soft as sand, hoarse and gentle.

Fu Sihan's heart was in a mess when he called him.

It's been six months, and he hasn't touched Chi Baiwan.

But how does he know, has anyone else touched it?

Fu Sihan looked at Chi Baiwan with hatred in his eyes, and said in a deep voice, "Put on your clothes first."

It was only then that Chi Baiwan realized what he was like. Not only did he blush all of a sudden, but every part of his body was not red, he grabbed the quilt and wrapped himself hastily.

He heard Fu Sihan speak ill of Lu Chen, jealousy completely overwhelmed the head of the proud son of heaven: "He's mine, don't think I don't know what you're thinking, even if you want to ﹉fuck﹉﹉he won't get it You, just take it easy."

Lu Chen almost gritted his teeth: "Your behavior is called ﹉force﹉﹉violence! How could he associate with someone like you?"

Fu Sihan didn't bother to respond, so he hung up the phone and left it aside.

In fact, even he himself knew that he shouldn't say these words in front of Chi Baiwan, but he couldn't help it.

As long as he thought of someone coveting the canary, he wanted to lock him up and hold him in his arms.

But Chi Baiwan was so angry that he ignored why Fu Sihan appeared in his room, and sat up in a jerk.

"Are you crazy? Why did you break into my room? Still answering my phone? Do you know how difficult Dr. Lu's time is? I didn't talk to him this time, and I don't know when the next time... "

"His time is expensive, so mine is worthless?" Fu Sihan said suddenly, "Do you know that during the few minutes I've been talking to you, the lost money is worth his salary for several lifetimes?"

"I didn't beg you to come, you can leave now." With his back turned to him, Chi Baiwan grabbed his phone and sent a text message to Lu Chen to apologize, but Fu Sihan snatched it away, took a look, and fell to the ground hard.

Fu Sihan's tone was indifferent: "You can't apologize to him. If you apologize to him, I will lose face."

Chi Baiwan's eyes were dark, and his voice was dull: "What should I do to make you agree to break up with me?"

As he spoke, he numbly peeled off his clothes, exposing his body, "Will you let me go if I let you sleep all night? If so, I won't resist. In the past five years, I will I have never resisted you. I will do whatever you want, and tonight is no exception. Do you want me to clean it? There are several boxes of covers in the hotel, don’t you like wearing them? Then don’t wear them, I won’t talk to you Angry, as long as you promise me, don't come to me again, I will listen to you..."

Once, Chi Baiwan also liked to say, Brother Han, I will listen to you in everything, as long as you are happy, I don't care what others think of me.

Now, he also said, I will listen to you.

But he wanted Fu Sihan to leave forever.

Fu Sihan's eyes were reddened by his actions and words, filled with regret.

His mouth is too much.

Fu Sihan had no choice but to be patient, stepped forward to wrap Chi Baiwan's collar around him, half-kneeled between his legs, and forgot to take off his shiny leather shoes.

"Don't be afraid, baby, I lied to him just now, tell me, how long have you been taking these medicines?"

Chi Baiwan was most afraid of Fu Sihan calling him a baby. He didn't want to recall that night, Ling Luo and his favorite person might have rolled into the same bed, and he left the scene in disgrace with nowhere to go.

Chi Baiwan said with a wooden face: "Since I broke up with you... just after we broke up. We broke up for six months, and I have been eating for six months."

Chi Baiwan repeated the word "breakup" over and over again. To Fu Sihan's ears, it was like a fatal torture and humiliation.

Fu Sihan coaxed him warmly: "Baby, I said, we didn't break up, you are still my lover, I know I didn't take good care of you, give me a chance, start over, we can go back to the past, you see , I found our original photo."

Fu Sihan took out the photo from his pocket, put it in his hand, and cherished it very much: "Come home with me, let's take another photo, shall we?"

Chi Baiwan looked at that photo, it was so ironic, he smiled so contentedly, he didn't know what kind of abuse was coming.

He thought he had found a safe haven, he thought that he could entrust his whole life to Fu Sihan, he would no longer be abandoned, he also had a home...

However, everything was in his imagination, all hypocritical and counterfeit, those good things only existed in Chi Baiwan's mind alone, thinking about it, tears rolled out again.

Chi Baiwan wiped the corners of his eyes, took out the lighter from Fu Sihan's coat pocket where he most often put it, and put it aside.

Fu Sihan didn't react at all, he was even immersed in Chi Baiwan's tears, his heart was pitted and full of scars from those tears.

Chi Baiwan cried.

He made Chi Baiwan cry again.

For so many years, except in bed, Canary doesn't like to cry. Fu Sihan knows better than anyone how stubborn and unyielding he is, and all his tenderness and tolerance are only for Fu Sihan.

Like now, with a blank face and tears streaming down his face, watching the tears hit the quilt and wet a lot, Fu Sihan has never seen it before.

How could he cry so hard?

Was it because of...his major depression?

Or is he doing it for Lu Chen?

At this moment, even for Lu Chen's sake, Fu Sihan didn't dare to say anything to provoke him.

A heart-piercing pain swept through his bone marrow, making him flustered, "You...don't cry."

He didn't come here today to make Chi Baiwan cry.

Chi Baiwan stared blankly at Fu Sihan through the hazy mist of tears in front of him. He knew he was in a mess, but he didn't care anymore: "Brother Han, I'm cowardly, I'm not as strong as you imagined, tonight, the two of us were killed The media filmed it clearly, you understand, after tonight is over, it’s hard to say whether I will have the chance to continue to be an actor tomorrow, if you pity me, don’t show up again.”

Fu Sihan's face became even more sad.

As soon as the words were finished, the door was opened. Assistant Yan Fang opened the door with Wen Yuxiao talking and laughing. Wen Yuxiao's smile had not dissipated. The moment she saw the two of them, her face suddenly changed It looks very nice.

"Mr. Fu?"

Wen Yuxiao changed into a velvet suit, she looked like she had just returned from a dinner party, she smelled warm of wine, walked over a few steps, and looked at the mess in front of her.

Wen Yuxiao was shocked by this scene.

Yan Fang was even more confused, "Brother Chi, is someone robbing here? This is..."

Wen Yuxiao pushed Yan Fang behind her, and her tall body stood in front of the little assistant, "Go out, close the door, and don't let the media secretly take pictures."

Chi Baiwan took a deep breath, buried himself in the quilt, feeling exhausted.

Wen Yuxiao had already seen Chen's wounds all over her body, and saw him crying in a mess. Because of his affection, he couldn't tear himself apart with Fu Sihan, although in the matter of Chi Baiwan, when the two of them confronted each other, it wasn't a big deal. few.

As a promising film king, Wen Yuxiao cares about his image, but his current status and strength prevent him from flattering big capital.

"Boss Fu, it's probably not a glorious thing to embarrass a young actor, not to mention, he's crying like that, don't you feel sorry for him?"

Fu Sihan returned to his usual indifference, straightened up, "You live with him?"

Wen Yuxiao didn't hide it, and even said bluntly with a smile that wasn't a smile: "Yeah, the two of us have a same-sex movie to shoot next, let's deepen our emotional contact in advance, is there any problem?"

Fu Sihan endured the fire and closed his eyes, "Stop taking pictures, I will pay you the liquidated damages."

"No."

Chi Baiwan, who was huddled under the blanket, popped up at this time. He took Fu Sihan's lighter and lit the Polaroid photo on fire.

The beautiful photos were turned into ashes, and his beautiful but red eyes watched his smile turn into ashes with his own eyes, and his heart was twisted into a rope. The pain made him unable to breathe, and the blood vessels all over his body hurt.

With trembling hands, he unscrewed the medicine bottle, poured out a few pills, and swallowed them.

Fu Sihan didn't know which thing to stop first, he could only watch the two things happen at the same time, neither of which could be stopped.

Looking at his pale face, Fu Sihan smiled uglier than crying.

"That's my job, even if I shoot GV, it has nothing to do with you."

Fu Sihan was angry when he said something to him, but when he saw Chi Baiwan burning the photo, he was even more flustered, his heart softened, and he slowed down his voice: "It's okay, we can take another photo if you burn it. After so many years, What do you want I didn't give you? What is a photo? What is a movie? If you like it, I will support you alone, as long as you promise me, start over with me."

His tone seemed to be coaxing another rag doll. It seemed sincere, but it actually revealed a sense of superiority. Chi Baiwan could tell that Fu Sihan didn't really take this matter to heart at all.

Chi Bai could guess it sooner or later, and he was unmoved. He shook his head slowly, "What you gave me is the care of a kitten and a puppy."

What I give you is the only thing that belongs to me.

Fu Sihan thought to himself that it was not only useless to persuade him for so long, but when had he suffered such a blow?

Since he was a child, has he wanted anything?Why have you ever begged someone so lowly?He was repeatedly rejected, even threatened by Canary, who was once able to strangle to death with one hand, in front of others?

Chi Baiwan hugged himself, "Let's go."

If you don't leave, I will really burn myself.

Fu Sihan endured and endured, he couldn't bear it anymore, he couldn't really do anything to Chi Baiwan, he could only put on his clothes coldly and leave, when Wen Yuxiao passed by, his hateful smile stabbed his eyes.

"If you dare to fuck him, you will be at your own risk."

Chi Baiwan also heard this sentence, his whole body trembled, but he didn't move.

Fu Sihan was still reluctant to part with him, and took a deep look at him. His feet seemed to be filled with lead, which made him unable to lift up and didn't want to leave, but there was no place to stay.

Wen Yuxiao didn't say yes or no, she almost looked at Fu Sihan at the same level, with a rare seriousness in her eyes: "He has slept with you for five years, it's time for a change."